I had a baby-- which you might have expected, considering I was hugely pregnant on my last post.
It's a girl, and she's almost 8 months old now. She was 8.15 at birth (huge!); we had a wonderful birth at the local birthing center, and she came fast! Three hours of hee-hee-hooooooo labor and boom: baby in the tub!
How blessed we are with our little family-- all of us healthy, happy and together.
Spring is fast falling back and summer is bursting forth; life abounds (though my tomato plants have not yet gotten the memo).
I'm focused on growth (yes, again!); this time it's also about inwardness, though it's the kind that renews and refreshes so I can come back and nurture everyone that needs it daily. Yes, I mean (fanfare): Time For Myself Away From Everyone! Wow. This is quite a concept and one that I am dancing with, at present.
In typical fashion, I trained my expectations so that I wouldn't be disappointed at not having any time to myself once I had one, then two children. Unfortunately, I learned too well, I think. I've gotten to the point of not expecting any time alone, and it's extinguishing the person I used to be! Obviously, my life is out of balance, and it's time for me to do something about it.
So, forward- march! I think if I can get out the way of myself, things will flow and I can get what I need. I have a very difficult time stepping back and letting things proceed naturally. The illusion of control is very powerful, despite its fallacy... It's one of my challenges. Thank goodness for Al-Anon!
Have a great summer-- I hope to see you sooner, rather than later!
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